Back to the grind. Or, rather, for me - the start of it.
Audible groans were chorused last week as students of all ages returned to the classroom. I, however, could not have been more excited. I've wanted to go back for what seems like forever - and now I'm living it, and thrilled.
I had a car accident back in January of 2011 which has left me with a moderate - severe back injury (depending on the day it's definitely worse). As such, I've had a difficult time coming to terms with the fact that not only do I need to live with this problem, but I need to work and come up with a career that I want to do - with this problem. Well, for two years I grappled with the concept of actually having a worthwhile job, let alone being able to do it. Sitting, standing, walking - anything really, causes me back pain. How was I to consider a career, let alone the rest of my life, with a smile on my face and "giving it my all"?
Well, I'm still very bitter about what happened to me. I think that anyone would be - it's not as though I'm able to walk away from it, or fix it (I have gone to three different Physiotherapy clinics on three separate occasions for several weeks at a time to no avail). I will be disabled for the rest of my life. It is practically an invisible disability - as at this point I have not purchased a walker, cane or scooter to help me move around. That may change - but I hope that it doesn't. The problem with an "invisible" disability is that you are treated equally..... let me explain why this is a problem.
I've always considered others, in everything. If I am walking across the road and I know that a vehicle is waiting until I am out of the way to turn, I will not take my time, check my phone, etc. because I feel that would be rude. Instead, I usually quicken my pace and cross to the other sidewalk as quickly as I can. Some days, though, I am unable to do this as I'm in too much pain. Those are the days that I can feel the driver's stare boring into my skull - I would imagine they're thinking things like, "hurry up" or "lazy! Can't you see I'm waiting?".
It's the same thing for buses. I've noticed that Durham Region Transit in particular seems to be bad for this.... they take off before you have a chance to sit down. I know I'm not the only one affected by this - however I wonder if they would do the same thing if I had a cane, or perhaps only one leg? Maybe not... but having an invisible disability is sometimes a disadvantage.
Back to the point of this post - school. I decided earlier this year that I wanted to be an editor. I've always loved reading, and considered myself to be a fairly good speller, and grammar was ok (blog posts not always included :P). I couldn't find an editing course, but I found Journalism. Boy, am I glad that I did.
Almost every part of this course is exciting - despite the amount of work I've been given. There are so many professions I could do when I've graduated - and most can be done even with my back injury. It's truly a thing of beauty when you're able to accept something negative about yourself and turn it into a positive. Remember that when the future seems so dim that you can't see a way out - there is always a silver lining and at the end of it all, the result will make all the heartache and suffering seem worthwhile.
After all, everything that I've done up until today (including the car accident) has lead me to where I am now. How could I regret any of it?
